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Sick Baby Boy

We had our very first doctors appointment today for Braydon. When they weighed him he was 5 lbs even. That’s a bag of sugar! He lost almost a whole pound, 13 oz since birth just 4 days ago. Breast feeding has been a struggle so we are supplementing with formula now but still pumping so eventually he can nurse again. If you don’t pump your body will stop making milk!

He also underwent a Billy Rueben test. That’s where they prick his heel and take blood … So sad to watch someone prick a sweet sleeping baby. Turns out his levels were literally off the charts. Now he has to wear this blue light to help his liver. It’s very uncomfortable for him. I’m really stressing out and worried for my baby.

We have another appointment tomorrow to make sure he hasn’t lost anymore weight. If he has then they will admit him to the NICU. Please keep us in your prayers. I pray my preemie baby will gain some weight!

Me? I am in pain still from this birth and my tear. I feel like right after I clean out my stitches they are dirty again. It’s frustrating. Also, I have not had a bowl movement in three days (TMI, sorry).

Weighed today at 159.0 so say hello to my starting weight. However, I am so distracted with the care of my baby to hit losing weight hard. Right now, my baby and the health of my baby is all I can think about.

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Braydon Michael

Hey my Tumblr peeps, 

We are home now and getting used to this huge adjustment called baby Braydon. I am up all night feeding, changing, and rocking him to sleep. He is so tiny in my arms and almost disappears in Michael’s arms. We are swept away by him, though. Everything he does we think it’s just the most amazing thing in the world. “Babe, did you hear that? He farted!” “Oh my God, could he get any cuter?!” Haha, those are are conversations. 

When I was at the hospital I asked for Chick-fil-a twice and Wendy’s once because the hospital food was absolutely repulsive. It was gross. I mean, fast food is pretty gross too, but at least it’s appetizing! Anyways, we’re back home but it’s hard to cook and do laundry just because when he’s asleep (which is very rare outside of my arms) I need to sleep. So eating healthy has become a struggle. 

Still I am trying. I’m going to weigh myself today to see where my “starting weight” is. 

# I had my baby! He was 4 weeks premature, born 4/14/12 at 11:09 am. He weighed in at 5 lbs 13 oz and 18 3/4 in long. He is beautiful! Labor was long and tough lasting 19 hours but when it was time to actually push he was out fast. After the head was visible in three strong pushes he was completely out! I tore a little and am stitched up. That is what hurts the worst right now. I am bleeding badly… Anyway they took him away for 6 hours to be checked and evaluated. He is with me now, but still so tiny. I find myself scared to change his diapers or put on a little t-shirt. He is so little! We are trying to learn how to breast feed which is hard for a premature baby because they fall asleep way too fast, lol. I am running on NO sleep! Forgive me if I do not make sense or my sentences don’t add up… I will try to sleep to night but with feedings every two hours… Idk. Keep us still in your prayers please!

I had my baby! He was 4 weeks premature, born 4/14/12 at 11:09 am. He weighed in at 5 lbs 13 oz and 18 3/4 in long. He is beautiful! Labor was long and tough lasting 19 hours but when it was time to actually push he was out fast. After the head was visible in three strong pushes he was completely out! I tore a little and am stitched up. That is what hurts the worst right now. I am bleeding badly… Anyway they took him away for 6 hours to be checked and evaluated. He is with me now, but still so tiny. I find myself scared to change his diapers or put on a little t-shirt. He is so little! We are trying to learn how to breast feed which is hard for a premature baby because they fall asleep way too fast, lol. I am running on NO sleep! Forgive me if I do not make sense or my sentences don’t add up… I will try to sleep to night but with feedings every two hours… Idk. Keep us still in your prayers please!

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Thursday, April 12th, 2012

Yesterday’s Intake

35 weeks, 2 days pregnant 

I sorta failed at eating every 2 hours. It’s pretty challenging for me for some reason. I got really carried away with packing my delivery bag today. I spent a REALLY long time looking through all Braydon’s clothes for a going home outfit. I finally found one that’s too cute! And, on top of that I’ve been feeling sick. ; ( Eh. 

8:30 am = Ensure Drink, Coffee with Cream and Sugar, Peanut Butter Toast 

12:30 pm = Grilled Cheese 

2:45 pm = Ensure Drink 

7 pm = Meatloaf with Ketchup, Cauliflower, and Mashed Potatoes 

# Vanilla flavor Ensure (actually tastes delicious like a milk shake), 32 oz Coffee with CoffeeMate and Sugar, and a slice of toasted Oatmeal bread with Peanut Butter! 

Vanilla flavor Ensure (actually tastes delicious like a milk shake), 32 oz Coffee with CoffeeMate and Sugar, and a slice of toasted Oatmeal bread with Peanut Butter! 

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My Doctor Said, “Eat, Eat, Eat!”

I said, “I am! I do!” But, he said I need more calories for this baby to gain some weight. He strongly advised Ensure. So, that’s what I’m on. He said drink two or three a day and eat something small every two hours… 

Oh. My. God. I don’t have an eating disorder or anything like that. I truly do enjoy eating. But, eating every 2 flippin’ hours seems like a pain! Haha. Of course, I’ll do anything for this bouncing baby! 

** I almost forgot to tell you - I am 4 cm dilated and 75% effaced already! OMG! 

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Jug Full of Pee

I am 40 minutes out from finishing my 24 hour urine test. I bet you don’t realize how much you can pee in a whole day. I mean, this jug is heavy! And now I have to have the humility to bring it into the lab - through the waiting room to drop it off and get more blood drawn. Haha! I’m really hoping me and the hubby can get some Chick-fil-a. Hey, this baby needs to gain some weight that deserves a chicken sand which and some waffle fries! ; ) 

We are praying that there is no protein in my urine when they check. But, if there is, Braydon will probably be induced on April 24th (or sooner!). That’s at the most 13 more days. It’s crazy scary but exciting, too. I am so in love with him already. He’s got me hooked. I can’t wait to meet him. I’m crazy about him!

So, if I have preeclampsia then its not the end of the world. I’ll get to meet my baby sooner. God knows what He’s doing, in all things.

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28

I’ve got a big God working things out on my behalf because of my love to Him and His love towards me. I’m humbled and comforted by that scripture.

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# Braydon - really squashed in there, head down at the narrowest part of my uterus&#8230; 34 weeks, 6 days

Braydon - really squashed in there, head down at the narrowest part of my uterus… 34 weeks, 6 days

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Saw the Specialist Today

I have had low blood pressure my whole life. Probably the perks of running or something. Well, my blood pressure was outrageous today at my appointment. It was so outrageous they took it three times.

My poor little baby is not doing well. He has only gained one ounce in a whole week. Anatomically he is doing just fine but he’s so tiny. They are checking me for preeclampsia. I have to pee in a jug for 24 hours, and then they will check my urine and draw (more) blood. If there is protein in my urine then I have preeclampsia. If it turns out I have preeclampsia then this baby will be here in a week or two. I’m not even done with the nursery!!!

I’m canceling my second baby shower because, with preeclampsia, I’m the one more at risk here than the baby. I have to make sure to keep myself very calm. Even “good stress” is stress and I have to exclude that completely. I am in danger of stroke and kidney failure. This is not forever, with in 24 hours of delivery everything returns to normal.

I am just a little bit scared, as a new mother should be right now. I’m praying that Braydon’s lungs are developed enough for delivery (even though they will probably give him steroid shots anyways). My little man is just soo tiny. Please keep us in your prayers.

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My Baby : (

Well, at my check up they referred to me to a specialist. They did this because my baby boy is measuring 8 full days behind growth wise. He should be 5.5 lbs and is only measuring at 4 lbs 6 oz. I see the specialist on Monday, so please say some prayers for baby Braydon and me. 

If the baby isn’t getting enough nutrition then I might get to meet him in two weeks! They will schedule a C-section. If the specialist thinks the baby will be better off drinking my breast milk than nutrition from the placenta then it could be very, very soon. But, it is still early and he is still so small. I am praying for strong lungs and developed organs! 

I’ll keep you updated!